In my head
A confusion
Behind my eyes
A standoff
To let go
Yet can never leave
Old aches
Constant pains
Love
Lust
Lonely
Hurt
Emptiness
Fear
In my heart
Behind this facade
A confusion
A silence
Missing who that is gone…
In my Head
Alike
I see you in me
Your fears
Your longings
Your desires
Your needs
I feel your soul in everything I read
Connected in some strange way
Connected but two thousand miles away
Your thoughts
Your wants
Your actions
Exactly like mine
We pour our hearts onto paper in the dark of night
Hiding our faces come the morning light
Recoiling from the world
It’s how we feel safe
What makes us feel alright
Suffering alone
Damming the pain
But totally miserable when there is no strife or strain
You understand me and how I feel day-to-day
Two souls
Twisted
Beaten
Rejected
Two souls each understanding the other…
Connected…
But two thousand miles away…
Nothing
Every day passing
Darkness only growing
Shades down
Exiled
Hidden from the world
Gone is hope
My light put out
Lost now
Wandering
Searching
For you
For words
For something
Anything
But in my sorrow
My madness
I find nothing…
Give Me
Give me a whiskey
One
Two
Three
Give me a whiskey
A double
To drown your memory
Give me a whiskey
Tall glass
So I can forget
Give me a whiskey
The good stuff
Then let me be
Give me a whiskey
I got them blues
The kind deep inside
The ones only a woman can cause
Give me a whiskey
Just keep um coming
Don’t ask why
I won’t tell
You would never understand anyway
Give me a whiskey
This round tonight is just for me
Give me a whiskey
One
Two
Three
Give me a whiskey
So I can raise a toast
Ironically to…
What I’m drinking to forget…
Inspiration
Simple words
An inspiration
From nowhere
Out of the blue
Opened a closed-door
Changed a repeating view
Simple words
Found a home
Thawed a frozen heart
Calmed a broken mind
Simple words
Evolved
Became something more
A connection
An unbreakable bond
Pushing
Pulling
No quitting allowed
Simple words
An inspiration
Once here
Now gone…
I Have
I have fallen
Fallen back
From a high place
A place I did not belong
Back to my path
Alone in the tangled darkness
Comfortable again
Sick inside my own skin
Anxiety filled
Hopeless
Insanely laughing
Covered in my own tears
Carving at half healed scars
I have fallen
Fallen back
Down again
So low
Have returned from a place I didn’t belong….
Lying Here
Lying here
Under the stars
Under this weight
Flat on my back
Lying here
Unable to move
Cannot eat
Sleep haunts
Eludes
Dreams deep
Life crushed
Lying here
Darkness
Window open
Shades down
Day’s?
Weeks?
Time passing
Hours standing still
Lying here
Hearing
Seeing words
Lies
Half truths
Confusion
Lying here
Heart beating
Limbs numb
Skin pale
Lips blue
Lying here
Shaking
Aching
Longing for the past
Lying here
Hoping
Praying
Once more
Your shadow falls upon my path...
Till Death
Inside
Unseen
Invisible
Demons
Ripping
Pulling
Tearing
Heart
Mind
Soul
Skin
Slaying
Shredding
Butchering
Consuming
Devouring
Inside
Out
Top
Bottom
Front
Back
Relentless
Attacking
Driving
Pushing
Thoughts
Words
Movements
Actions
Agonizing
Torture
Madness
Genius
Parasite
Host
Locked
Bonded
Welded
Seamless
One entity
One soul
Shared body
Till death do us part…
Abyss
Into an abyss
Dropped into space
Screaming
Falling
A vortex
No gravity
Never landing
Light speed
Warped
Distorted
Mumbled
Unknown voices
Laughing
Taunting
Calling your name
Relentless
Pursuing
Once bliss
Now longing for death
Falling
Falling
No bottom
No ending
Into the abyss
At the top of my lungs
Screaming your name…
Abandoned
Long ago abandoned
Way way back
Before my birth
Left
Unwanted
Walked away
Now today
Yesterday
And an entire past
From this
From you
A fear
Something I can never escape
Haunted
Day
Night
Just hanging by a thread
Created
Abandoned
Issues
No answers
Life long terror
Can never get close
This wall invisible
Yet tall and strong
All twisted up
Abandoned
The reason I’m edgy
Broken and neurotic…
