Excuse me

Pardon me

Ok fine then

Just ignore me

Excuse me

Pardon me

Ok fine then

I will speak my mind anyway



Deny the truth

Even though you see every word of it laid squarely at your feet

Keep believing

Believing in your own wretched lies

A tangled truth

A web of deception

Layer upon layer

Word after word

No longer any lines

Everything blurry


Out of focus

Can no longer tell a truth from a lie

Excuse me

Pardon me

Careful of the deceit you weave

For karma’s a bitch

And soon I hope she will pay you a visit…


Breaking the surface
A hand from above

Demanding a fight
Not letting me drown

Wings of hope
Soaring down

Grabbing my arm
Pulling me up

To the light
Towards the sun

From the depths
Away from the blackness

Up Up Up
Soaring to new heights

Then suddenly
Letting go

Cold a callous
Just watching me fall

On twisted wings
Soaring away

Gone without mercy

A short moment in my time

Now reflecting…

Last gasping breath…




Where have you gone?

All these years flying by

Yet never forgetting


What could have been

What never was

Different words?

More or less aggressive?

The pendulum of fate never quite swinging in our direction

So where have you gone after all these years?

You have gone to memory

Gone to mildew and yellow

Gone to age gracefully

Fused forever into the fabric of my being…


The time has passed

The sun has set

Long gone now

Those day’s of youth

Only faint memories


A smile creeping

Then like time

Quickly fading away

The time has passed

The sun has set

Eye sight fades

Skin once taught



Now aged

Weathered like an old boot

And just as tough

But my time is now passed…

My hour-glass has run out…

My sun has set…

These words…

My Last…


Cheer up

Please I don’t want to hear it

Your words ring hollow

They don’t mean a thing

They just create a hollow thumping

An insane banging inside my brain

I would if I could

But I can’t

Not because I won’t

But for the reason that I am broken

My wires are crossed

My circuits are fried

All I carry inside is darkness

A lonely that never goes

How many times can I explain I can’t just wish this away?

All this anxiety


Nowhere to go

A future uncertain

A past hiding around every corner


So close

Yet somehow just out of reach

Ready to go crazy

Yet never crossing the threshold

So for sanity’s sake

I write

Every night emptying the bucket

Purging myself of the day almost past

Only knowing tomorrow it will fill itself full again

And I

Will be

As always

Same time

Same place



Just more meaningless vomit upon a once clean page…

I Don’t

I don’t want to hurt anymore

I don’t want to cry

I don’t want to live

I don’t want to die

Can’t stand to be busy

Can’t stand to be idle

Just stuck watching time pass

The clock moving backwards

Life unraveling

Waking up the next day

Wondering where the last 25 years went

I don’t want to hurt anymore

I don’t want to cry

But tonight as I think back

I can’t feel anything more than totally helpless…