Written


Opened a box
Morphed
Changed

Stared into my fears
Released my taboo’s

Spoke of things unspoken
Broke down walls I never built

Morality etched
Boundaries set
Lines never to be crossed

All gone now
A brand new map

Thinking
Pondering
Lost in wonderment

So many changes
Such a short time

Still a bit uncomfortable with who I have become…

Thief


In the dead of night
Hiding
Blinding screen

Typing
Never thinking

Spilling
Emotions

A rainbow
Hurt
Lust
Rage

No stone left unturned
Burning the candle at both ends

A diary so to speak
Past to present
A mixed up puzzle of words

I
Like a thief
Unseen in the darkness

Taking
Stealing
Pillaging

My own thoughts
My transgressions
My dreams

And secretly
Quietly
Placing down them for all to see…

Break Me


Twist me
Bend me

Hide behind closed eyes
Snide comments
Vicious jealousy

Your view of what I am not
A stunning belief of what I should be

How you walk in my shoes
Breathe my breath
Fit in my skin

Weak in your mind
So twist me
Bend me

Find that I am stronger than iron
Stubborn like rusted bolts

More calculating
More evil
More vindictive

So break me

Go ahead

Give it your best shot…

Perfect


Drunk to hide the pain
High to laugh it away

Combining
Mixing
Trying to find that perfect intoxication

Out in the open
Hidden in plain sight

Under your nose
Right in your face

I’m really good
Or your just blind

Bottle at work
Bottle at home

Uppers there
Downers here

One or the other
Always at the ready

Quiets the tension
Keeps things steady

Problem
Eventually

Functioning

Depressive

Drinking

Pill popping

Just make it to the next day crazy…

Over Time


Over time

The mind

Decaying

From the past
A seed planted

Over time
Growing

Cancerous
Choking

In the now
Overgrown

Cluttered
Unable to maintain

Over time
Sanity
Slowly disappearing

Here and now
Buried deep
Fragile roots

Unseen
Inside
Silent torture
Internal agony

Over time
Anxiety and panic
Taken over

All from one seed

Spreading silently

Killing everything…

Karma


Walking

Minding my own business

Dispute or discussion?

Two sides
One mind

How?
Why?

A face smiling
Darkness hiding
A master of a million disguises

From high above
Conversation interrupted

Demonic crow squawking

Tallest tree
Longest branch

Close to invisible
Almost catching a glimpse

Laughing
Taunting
Calling out

Yellow yellow CoWaRd!!!

Stone under foot
One in the shoe

Both blasted skyward
Heave ho

Missed the target

Just rattling branches

Did not even graze the damn thing

Emboldened
Hopping
Squawking
Taunts now louder

Unfocused
Careless
Caution to the wind

Bully now prey
A swooping eagle

Lunch
Dinner
Snack

Taunts silenced

Karma’s a bitch

Only a shiny black feather drifting my way…

Tears In My Eyes


Tears in my eyes blur the ink on the page

Silent in sorrow

Unable to rage

Shaking and twitching with invisible demons

Need to run

Need to hide

Slowly loosing what energizes my writes

Pulling away

Drifting in another direction

Universe collapsing all around

Checking for words

But none to be found

Fewer and fewer day by day

Till eventually

As so many times before

I won’t have my friend anymore

But this will hurt so much worse

Feelings stirred from so deep

I could never put into words…