As I


As I lie awake

My mind begins to race

In darkness I toss and turn

No one seeing

Nobody knowing

This worry

This burden

The weight I carry

Obsessed

Depressed

Tetering

Clinging to an invisible ledge

Nails digging

Fingers aching

Tears streaming

Body broken

Mind in tatters

Just praying for a light

A rope

Some solace

A tiny slice of hope

As I lie awake

My mind races

I am breaking

Crumbling

Loosing reality

Coming unglued…

Unable to stop…

One Way


In a violent fit

Convulsions of brainwashed violence leak out

Twitching uncontrolled

Eyes rolled back

Silent internal screams demanding vengeance

Invisible hands reaching

Stretching

Grasping for justice

Only finding

Cold

Heartless

Impatience

Intolerance

Betrayal

A wolf in sheep’s clothing

Demonic smiling

A voice whispering

Follow me

It’s easier

Walk down my one way path…

Why?


Why have I slipped?

Why have you risen?

You once so low
Gasping
Drowning
Sliding beneath the waves

I right beside you
Tired
Cold

Together
Shared misery

Somehow
Someway

Always there
Holding the other up

In darkness
Internal damnation
Pasts equal with twists and turns

You
My light
Have vanished

Risen
Soared above the turmoil and strife

I
Still here
Once again hopeless

Drifting
Frozen
An empty corpse

Alone once more in the ocean of life…

Fighting


With a tired mind
I fight with the words

With passion fleeing
I search for inspiration

Within inner turmoil
I resist becoming invisible

What once flowed freely
So openly
Now seems restricted
Forced
Clumsy
Careless
Void of passion

With a tired mind
I fight each sentence
Each line
Every stanza

Battling in darkness
The backspace button laughing
Frustration growing

Fighting
Forcing
Cursing

Trying to regain the words that have silently slipped away…

Behold


Behold!!

Look upon what I have built!!

A wall

A fortress

Brick upon brick

Stone upon stone

Sweat running

Heart racing

Hands bleeding

Muscles aching

Behold years of toil!!!

Gaze with wonder upon my creation!!!

Dare inside your mind to find a weakness

A crack

A hole

An entrance

Behold my folly!!!

My isolation

My cries now unheard

Behold!!!

I have built a palace

Everything exactly according to plan

No doors to exit

No windows open

Only walls thick and high

Behold my insanity!!!

For my own creation I am now trapped inside..

Where?


Where is your voice?

The one in my head

The one I have never heard

Where are your thoughts?

The ones I feel yet never see

Where is your sadness?

Your sorrow?

Your smile I have never seen?

Where are your words?

Your trials?

Your joys?

Where are your truths?

Your make me smile lines?

Where?

Why?

Never seen

No longer heard

You have like all others before

Just drifted away with the current

Never to be seen or heard from again…