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Something really old out of one of my notebooks.

Your number curls and fades as it hangs upon my wall
Like the love we had soon it will disintegrate and fall
I try so hard to hang on to what not there
The beauty of your smile
The warm smell of your hair
They linger with me and will never leave
Now I walk forever alone
Thinking why did you leave?

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Far Away


From somewhere far away
Will you please come back to me?

Like a fool
I watched you run into the distance

Never giving chase
Only my blessing

Told you to fly
To soar
To break your chains
To be free from the bonds of tyranny

Calmly
Quietly
I closed my eyes and let go of your hand

Never realizing
What was best for you
Would tear open my scars
And leave a hole of blackness within my aching heart…

Legacy


Screaming out

 

Energy spent

 

Mind and body in tatters

 

Restless

Broken

 

Bent

Mangled

 

Dreams shattered

 

Hopeless

Worthless

 

On a cliff

Wind in my face

Toes wiggling on the edge

 

Dark soul

Heart of stone

 

Beaten

Battered

Oh Lord for a moment’s peace and quiet

 

Voices

Self doubt

 

Edge of insanity

Can’t keep going like this

 

Tears once free-falling

Now only tickling the eyelids and laughing in retreat

 

On a cliff

Forward

No surrender

 

Stepping off

 

Legacy cemented

 

Never a hero

 

Birth to death

 

Circle now complete

 

Only a failure…

Where Am I


Where am I ?

Why is it so cold?

Where is the warmth?

The love?

The magic promise of tomorrow and forever?

Where am I?

How did I get here?

Cold

In the rain

Peering through the shattered window of life

On the outside of happiness

Alone in darkness

A broken shell of what I once was

Cursing

Crying

Somewhat still denying

Too embarrassed to admit I believed all your lies…