I Miss…


I miss you my friend…

I miss

Our chats

Our talks

Our sober thoughts

Our drunken laughs

*

I miss you my friend

I miss what we had

The honesty

The respect

The way we just connected

*

I miss you my friend

I miss you as tears roll down my face

I miss you as I scream your name

I miss you as I am hating your guts

I miss you with every fiber of my being

*

I miss you my friend

And yes

No matter what

I will always carry

Your name on my lips

And a love for you in my heart

*

I miss you my friend

God bless you

Wherever you are…

The Sky


The sky is clear

The snow has stopped

A sleeping city ready to awaken

Quiet now

Yet noisy if you stop and listen

Plow trucks

Sirens blaring off in the distance

Ice on tree branches eerily creaking

The deafening sound of crunching snow under foot

*

The sky is clear

My senses are alive

I can hear everything

I can feel a pulse

A rhythm

A flow

Of the daily grind to come

Stop

Speed up

Hurry

Wait

Please let me make it through the day

*

The sky is clear

And in mere moments

If you listen closely

You can hear an entire city slowly groan and come to life…

Fueling My Mind


My insanity runs deep
It fuels my mind

I will never be silenced
Not by anybody
Especially by those who think they can control my life

Love me
Hate me
I don’t mind

Lie to my face
Stab me in the back

Just remember my silence is phony
Giving all a false sense of security

The whole time plotting my vengeance
Ready and willing to destroy your life

So cross me if you dare

My silence is insanity
My demons are many
I will not be silenced
And only revenge will satisfy my hunger

Digging


Lessons learned
Yet doomed to repeat

Digging
Backtracking the past

Wisdom eludes
Finding for others
Never for myself

Trapped in a whirlpool
A vortex of self-destruction

Can’t seem to follow self-imposed rules

Reality bounces in and out

Swirling
Twirling
Sanity eluding

Always digging
Wondering
Worrying

Cursed
Repeating the circle

Answers so close
Just out of reach

Constantly searching
Yet never learning

Always staring into an empty glass

Thinking
Digging
Doomed to repeat the past…

Rancid


Rancid

Black

Hopeless

Repeating

Nightmare never-ending

Rope stretching

Bones snapping

Body twisting

Dangling

Lifeless

Last breath taken

Devil still hidden behind blue eyes

A creepy smile etched upon cold pale lips

*

Rancid

Black

This nightmare

Dead bodies

Broken mirrors

Curses

Clowns in the closet

*

Rancid

Decaying

Slowly going insane

Night after night

The nightmare never changes…

Ignited


Ignited

Inhaled

Coursing through

Veins

Major arteries

The heart

Unloading into the brain

Creating joy

Confusion

Every emotion in between

Ignited

Inhaled

My drug

Permanent addiction

Your beauty

Your scent

Like a junkies needle jammed into my arm

Your name calling

Whispering in the back of my mind

Always chasing that “high”

Forever needing a fix

I inhaled you

I breathed all of you in

You

My greatest downfall

You

My addiction…

Ribbons


Gazing in the mirror of time and space
Seeing things have slipped away

Graying
Ageing at a furious pace

Youth slipped by
Blink of a young mans eye

Tragedy
Heroism
Success and failure

Now dead inside
No emotions
All thoughts locked away

Gazing
What could have been?

Thinking
Pondering
Hollow eyes staring back at me

So many questions
Mysterious in their ways
Interlocking ribbons of time and fate…

Into


Into my veins
Into space
Ears bleeding
Heart pounding
Soul screaming
Lying back
Drifting
Conscious yet passed out
Eyes blurred
Fingers numb
All the colors of the rainbow
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Blended into one
Sweet rush swallowing me whole
No turning back
Hooked for good
Jamming my veins
Slipping from this world…

Torn Away


Once only your gaze captured my heart

Now another stirs my soul

One completely out of the dark

Never saw it coming

Stolen in the night

No warning

Blinding my senses

Confusing wrong and right

So many emotions
Can no longer comprehend

Mixed up inside
All broken up

Just need to run and hide

Torn away from what I was

But what have I become?

The lie I live

Always dreaming of the impossible love

Emotions buried deep but always right up front

Dam this longing heart…

Cursing me to wander forever in the cold cold dark…