Dark And Mellow


Mood
Dark and mellow

Bowl
Glowing hot

Smoke
Curling

Drink
Black Tartan

Scotch
Drambuie
Jameson
Khalua…Homeade the only way

Rocks glass
Equal parts
One cube

Sinatra
Floyd
Depeche Mode

No Rhyme
No reason
One then the other

Room dim
Screen glowing
Creativity peaking

Keyboard clacking
Eyes burning
Ember fading
Drink…almost gone

Last hit
Last swallow
Winding down

Slumping
Sinking
Peaking
Now at that perfect blend of drunk and high

Me alone

In silence

For a moment
No worries
Not a care

Loosing consciousness
Thoughts flashing
Slightly grinning

Drifting
Sliding

Free now
No rope to pull me back

Cherishing every second of being dark mellow…

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Empty Soul


Cold wind blows through my empty soul
Only sound I hear is a whisper
Days loud and bright
Now forever dark and worthless
Once only mine
Torn and ripped away
Shared with someone else
Secrets sold without knowing
Hidden passions kept under wraps
Dirty games played in plain sight
Twisted just enough not to raise suspicion
So long covering tracks
Going forward
Silently doubling back
Tripped over your own two feet
Caught in your own lie
Played me for a fool
The look of horror knowing that I knew
But still lying in denial
Trying to save face
Scratching and clawing like a weasel
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
Gig up
Game over
Busted
Just go
Ripped to shreds
Burnt to the ground
Dead inside and out
Only my empty soul left to carry on

Distance


In my heart
Within my tired mind
Behind my eyes
A path grown over

Inside my head
No clarity
No direction
Only fear of tomorrow
Complete panic
Total desperation

Hidden in my soul
A distance growing
A breakdown
A meltdown
A fractured distorted reality

Looking outward from within
Just hoping
Praying
Longing for simplicity
Blindly reaching into oblivion

Grasping for a step forward
Falling backwards
Never quite attaining square one…

Misty Souls


From the mist gloom

A whisper

A shadow

A breathless moan

Lost footsteps ringing hollow and cold

From the mist and gloom

Stillness

Branches creaking

Faint pale shadows from the last leaves of fall dance silently upon frozen ground

Air cold

Breath frozen

Silent screams rising

Whispering

Howling

Laughing uncontrolled

Singing

Chanting

Surrounding

Entering

Overtaking

Finding a new soul

Banished from heaven

Too good for hell

Paroled to torture mankind

Shadowy

Lurking

Lost souls

Misty souls

An eternity to roam the earth…

Dear Jesus


When my hour-glass has run out
When my blip in time has passed

When I no longer struggle on this path
When I can finally just take a breath

When all my sorrows are gone
When all of me is once again whole

When voices are no more
When demons have vacated my front porch

When before my eyes my life flashes
When the gates open and I pass through

When I cross the other side
When I sit dangling my feet from my cloud

When my eyes are bright
When I sing a happy song

Eternally grateful for being forgiven
But hopefully allowed to ask just this one question

Dear Jesus could you leave an extra light on?

You already know this…

But I am awful afraid of the dark…