Dark And Mellow


Mood
Dark and mellow

Bowl
Glowing hot

Smoke
Curling

Drink
Black Tartan

Scotch
Drambuie
Jameson
Khalua…Homeade the only way

Rocks glass
Equal parts
One cube

Sinatra
Floyd
Depeche Mode

No Rhyme
No reason
One then the other

Room dim
Screen glowing
Creativity peaking

Keyboard clacking
Eyes burning
Ember fading
Drink…almost gone

Last hit
Last swallow
Winding down

Slumping
Sinking
Peaking
Now at that perfect blend of drunk and high

Me alone

In silence

For a moment
No worries
Not a care

Loosing consciousness
Thoughts flashing
Slightly grinning

Drifting
Sliding

Free now
No rope to pull me back

Cherishing every second of being dark mellow…

Will


Will somebody tonight please just hear me?

Listen to me?

Give me a shoulder to muffle my screams?

Lend me a gentle hand?

Open their heart to someone diseased?

Hold my hand and help find the lighted path?

Find a space in your heart for someone in such darkness?

Will someone tonight please hear me?

The pills never work

The booze just numbs

I have nothing to smoke

And the walls are closing in…

Moon Glow


Under the moon glow
Smoke rises
Footsteps ring loud to ears never hearing

Under the moon glow
A faint heart beats
Kept alive by only your memory

Under the moon glow
Inside a quiet space
A reflective place
I regress
Falling back over and over to what once was

Under the moon glow
Swaying branches mock
Passing clouds giggle and whisper
A gentle breeze chills the soul

Under the moon glow
I walk
Aimless
Searching
Seeking
Silent
Unseen

Under the moon glow
Smoke rising
Mumbled words
Your name slipping out

Under the moon glow
A nightly journey
Looking skyward
Just praying for your return…

I Know


I know all

I know nothing

I am whole

Yet inside I am incomplete

For without your voice

I am silent

Without your eyes

I have no vision

Without your strength

I cannot stand

Without my other heartbeat

I have ceased to exist

I know all

I know only suffering

I am

I am not

For without you

I am alone

My soul is in darkness

I am forever

I am nothing

Always wandering

Searching

Never finding

What we once had…

Reduced


Reduced
Reduced to this

Paranoid
On edge
An illogical mess

Jumpy
Unfocused
Disconnected

Hopeless
Fearful
Lost

Trapped
Building ever higher walls

Lonely
Yet never alone

Silent
But screaming inside

Waiting
Always anticipating

Doom
Gloom

Deeper darkness
The final demise of my empty hollow soul

Reduced
Reduced to this

Sitting
In darkness
Arms wrapped tight

Rocking slowly

Hiding from the world

Praying like a madman for an end to this life…

Where?


Where have you gone?

Did you walk?

Did you run?

Where is your mind?

Is it cracked?

Or is it fine?

How is your heart?

Mended now?

Or does the darkness still prevail?

Where have you gone?

Have you shed the past and flown away?

Maybe in silence you retreated back into the depths?

So many questions

A lifetime to think

Just wondering

Wishing

Missing

Yet looking back

Would not change a thing…