Everything’s Broken


My pen is dry
The paper is crumpled
My screen is blank

Cursor just blinks
No words on the page
Heart and mind race

Darkness
Emptiness
Short of breath

Anxiety
Depression
The never ending 50 ton elephant

Everything’s broken
My heart
My mind
My spirit

Empty page
Silent rage
A void never filled

Just one day hoping not to wake up
So I don’t have to be broken anymore…

As I Slip


Slipping from this world into another

Into land of darkness doom and dispair

Falling hopelessly

Unwillingly

Everything beginning to spin and spiral out of control

Wires crossed

Communications down

A cloak of black now covering my soul

Creeping

Crawling

Suffocating every inch of my being

Dragging me under

Pulling me down

Leaving me for dead

But as I slip from this world into another

And as my smile fades

I look back

I remember

I shudder

And I prepare myself for another round of depression…

This


Promises broken

A heart left abandoned

Twisted

Disconnected

A soul with toes on the edge

Sun setting

Curtain closing

Theater once full

Now every seat empty

Whisps of madness

Clouds of doubt

Knew all along it would come to this

Played

Used

Another Oscar worthy performance for playing the fool

Promises broken

Script all played out

Ageing

Alone

All washed up

You were my

Last chance

Best hope

Now look at me

This is all that’s left…

Reduced


Reduced
Reduced to this

Paranoid
On edge
An illogical mess

Jumpy
Unfocused
Disconnected

Hopeless
Fearful
Lost

Trapped
Building ever higher walls

Lonely
Yet never alone

Silent
But screaming inside

Waiting
Always anticipating

Doom
Gloom

Deeper darkness
The final demise of my empty hollow soul

Reduced
Reduced to this

Sitting
In darkness
Arms wrapped tight

Rocking slowly

Hiding from the world

Praying like a madman for an end to this life…