Fueling My Mind


My insanity runs deep
It fuels my mind

I will never be silenced
Not by anybody
Especially by those who think they can control my life

Love me
Hate me
I don’t mind

Lie to my face
Stab me in the back

Just remember my silence is phony
Giving all a false sense of security

The whole time plotting my vengeance
Ready and willing to destroy your life

So cross me if you dare

My silence is insanity
My demons are many
I will not be silenced
And only revenge will satisfy my hunger

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As I Stand


As I stand on the edge of the abyss

My mind beginning to wander

Pondering

Expressions

Names

Faces

Skeletons long forgotten

Places barely remembered

As I stand on the edge of the abyss

My toes suspended

Free from gravity’s pull

Dangling

Hovering

Just waiting for the rest of me to follow…

Anger Love Lust


Broken mind
Bruised knuckles
Shattered glass
Swimming insanity
Seven sins
Aching need
Another bottle
Another day
Freaking out
Lost control
Bad behavior
Whispered words
Whiny people
Naughty dreams
Not real
Pure torture
Perfect sin
Giving up
Given in
My dance
Many turns
Lust raging
Laughing insanity
Twisted thoughts
Teasing sweetness
Angry thoughts
Aching need
My turn
Many whips
Licking insanity
Lustful need…

In


In a stark white room

Padded

Trapped inside

Four walls

This jacket

All these buckles

Binding shackles

Weighed down

Burdened by demons

Mind tortured

Burned at the stake

Pictures in my head

Giant black circles

Ceiling

Walls

Cris crossing

Overlapping

Eventually closing

Blocking out everything

Shuttering my world

Closing it forever in darkness

In a stark white room

I live

I dream

Abandoned

Forgotten

Left to wither and die

Daily

Nightly

Lucid

Insane

I close my eyes

I close them tight and just fly away..

This


Promises broken

A heart left abandoned

Twisted

Disconnected

A soul with toes on the edge

Sun setting

Curtain closing

Theater once full

Now every seat empty

Whisps of madness

Clouds of doubt

Knew all along it would come to this

Played

Used

Another Oscar worthy performance for playing the fool

Promises broken

Script all played out

Ageing

Alone

All washed up

You were my

Last chance

Best hope

Now look at me

This is all that’s left…

Should I?


I don’t know
All mixed up
Wheels spinning
Head turning
Can’t figure anything out

Up high
Down so low

Chained up
Key within reach

Everything’s futile
Story repeating
Nowhere to run to

Trapped inside my own muddled mind
Should I?
Could I?
Would I?

Up is down
Down is up

Glass half full?
Laced with poison?
Paranoia taking over
Only smiling in public places

Crazy
Insane
Oh yes I am perfectly fine

Loud days
Quiet nights
Confusion reigns supreme

Don’t know whats next on my minds twisted list

Should I dance?
Have sex?
Or just shoot someone?

Reduced


Reduced
Reduced to this

Paranoid
On edge
An illogical mess

Jumpy
Unfocused
Disconnected

Hopeless
Fearful
Lost

Trapped
Building ever higher walls

Lonely
Yet never alone

Silent
But screaming inside

Waiting
Always anticipating

Doom
Gloom

Deeper darkness
The final demise of my empty hollow soul

Reduced
Reduced to this

Sitting
In darkness
Arms wrapped tight

Rocking slowly

Hiding from the world

Praying like a madman for an end to this life…