I want to run to you

But I don’t know where you are

I want to call to you

But in what direction shall I call out?

I want to see you

To feel you

To touch you

To taste the sweetness of you lips

I want to run to you

Pick you up

Spin you around

Gaze into your eyes

And for just a brief moment

Have time stand still…



Feeling lower than ever before




Mind wandering


Lost in a fog


No direction


Heart without a home

Soul without a mate

Taking word trip down memory lane




Holding each other up day noon and night


Beyond a friendship

A soul connection

Sharing things sworn to never be told


Promising to be there

A pinky swear promise never to leave


So tonight

Counting back

14 months since I heard from you last


I sit




On lines

Single words


Picking apart phrases

Looking for answers I’ll never find


Like why I called you my princess?


And why I can’t come to the reality that your never coming back…


I want to cry

Up so high
Down so low
Reading words you wrote long ago

In the now
Torturing myself with the past
Reality saying you won’t be back

Drunker now
High as can be
But no matter what I can’t be free

Holding out
Hanging on
One finger still gripping the edge

Not willing to accept that you are gone for good…

I Want

I want to drink with you

Dine with you

Inhale you

Devour your scent

Meld our two souls into one

I become you

You become me

Bonded into one being

No lines

No separation

Only one heartbeat

I want to shout with you

From the roof tops

Our happiness

Our joy…

But alas…

I cannot

For you are only a figment of my imagination

And true love does not exist…

Silvery Sky

So I look towards the silvery sky

I exhale

I sigh

Where o where has my dear love gone?

Picked up in a tornado?

Lost in a blizzard?

Washed away in a flood?

Declared dead from an overdose of narcotics?

For once you were here

And now you have gone

I am hurt

I am puzzled

So I make another wish to the silvery moon

Same wish

For the one billionth time

Please come back so I can live again…

On This

On this the most moonlit of nights

We lie on the ground

Hands together

Eyes on the stars

Silently watching



The enormity

The vastness of the universe

The complexity of us

On this the most moonlit of nights

I feel your heart beat

Your pulse increase as we count each meteor trail

Then both secretly making a wish on each and every star

On this…

The most moonlit of nights…

I Never again will have to dream of holding you in my arms…

For finally…

At last…

We are together…

Two bodies…

One soul…

Forever and ever…


Thirsting (repost)

Many pieces
So many questions

Life’s uneven rhythm
Pulse begins to race
Then becomes faint and weak

No interest
No desire

Uncontrolled longing
Raging lust

Sober heartache
Drunken smile

Angels watching
Demons abound

Right place
Wrong time

So many pieces
So many mistakes

All this dreaming
All wasted time

Puzzle of my heart
Missing a part


Thirsting for your love…


You repaired my heart

Gave me light

Gave me hope

Helped pull me from the wreckage

Saved me from myself

Closed the dead-end road I was crawling down

You repaired my heart

Restored the faith I had lost

Gave me a reason to “just hang on”

Then I blinked

And you were gone

So now I sit alone



But much better off


Because Angels never stay in one place

They soar

They fly

They keep watch on all of us

So to you my Angel

Where ever you are

I look toward the stars


And wish you a good night…

Anger Love Lust

Broken mind
Bruised knuckles
Shattered glass
Swimming insanity
Seven sins
Aching need
Another bottle
Another day
Freaking out
Lost control
Bad behavior
Whispered words
Whiny people
Naughty dreams
Not real
Pure torture
Perfect sin
Giving up
Given in
My dance
Many turns
Lust raging
Laughing insanity
Twisted thoughts
Teasing sweetness
Angry thoughts
Aching need
My turn
Many whips
Licking insanity
Lustful need…