Tonight


My mindset was in a very dark place when I wrote this.
But that is why I write. To let the bad things out and not bottle everything up.

Tonight I have fallen
Lowest depths of rock bottom

Sipping the bottle slowly
Praying the suffering will ease

Speaking out loud
Writing it down
Asking God again for help

To please ease my ache
To cure the burden in my heart
To finalize what for so long I don’t understand

Tonight
Darker than all others

All twisted up
Just dying inside

Unsteady
Unstable
Pressure building
Capped tight

Tonight
Cracking like a mirror
Each emotion falling to the floor

Too much to bear
Too much to take

Ignored
Unanswered
Forsaken by the Lord

So from now on
All my wrong feelings
Everything buried and hidden
The love I truly feel

I will never again speak of…