Everything’s Broken


My pen is dry
The paper is crumpled
My screen is blank

Cursor just blinks
No words on the page
Heart and mind race

Darkness
Emptiness
Short of breath

Anxiety
Depression
The never ending 50 ton elephant

Everything’s broken
My heart
My mind
My spirit

Empty page
Silent rage
A void never filled

Just one day hoping not to wake up
So I don’t have to be broken anymore…

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Rage And Thumb (an older write I dug up)


Mama’s rage
Papa’s thumb
Prying eyes from someone else

Ran
Dragged
Pulled
Pushed

Every direction
All at the same time

Decisions
Pre determined

Fate played it’s straight

I only two pair
Ace’s and eight’s
The dead man’s hand

Stuck now
Trapped
stretched to the limit

In the middle
Never a chosen side

Chained to the new
Crushing weight of the old

Unstable
Cracked
Pieces of sanity long fallen off

Yet
Always a perfect smile
A polite hello

Everything hidden
An invisible veil

Secret scars
Endless nights

Mama’s rage
Papa’s thumb
Others prying eyes

Had bigger dreams….

Didn’t choose this life…