Race


A last-minute race

To the finish line

Razor blade

Tiny lines

Releasing demons

Each time going further

Deeper in

Thicker and longer scars

Harder to hide

Ugly

Causing anxiety

Shallow breathing

Gasping for air

Round and round

Vicious circle

Blade

Release

Panic attack

Over and over again

Relentless

Consuming

Never ending

One day

Found dead

On the short end

Of a rope

Swinging joyfully

Free from all this madness…

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Can’t See


Can’t you see
My life is a thread
Hanging
Dangling
Swinging in the wind
A broken record
Cursed to the core
Black cloud
Agony
Suicidal pain
Mouth stitched shut
Darkness
Closed doors
Thorny paths
Bare knuckles
Bloody hands
Loaded gun
Itchy finger
Lost
Forgotten
Prophecy unfolding
Unmarked grave awaits…

PART II I did not write this part. Reader response from my Facebook page

Speaking

Speaking my thoughts without a word
Seeing them on a page
One I did not write
Knowing I walk the same path
But still feeling alone
Thorns cutting my skin
A pain deep within
Walls closing in on me
Making things hard to breathe
Nothing stops the pain
All in my mind
Begging to be set free
No one hears my screams as I walk off the edge
Back into that dark empty hole
Lost and forgotten to the world
Decaying in my self dug grave…

As I Stand


As I stand on the edge of the abyss

My mind beginning to wander

Pondering

Expressions

Names

Faces

Skeletons long forgotten

Places barely remembered

As I stand on the edge of the abyss

My toes suspended

Free from gravity’s pull

Dangling

Hovering

Just waiting for the rest of me to follow…

Tired


Tired
Oh so tired

Beaten down
Bleeding to death
Curled up on the cold hard ground

Tired
Oh so tired

Given up on everything
Given up on life

Numb
A cocktail
A random handful of pills and whiskey to wash it down

Tired
Oh so tired

Just waiting
Silently staring

Any moment now
Just one more second

Trigger pulled
Snap of the hammer

BANG!!!

At last

THE END…